So it’s day 43 of our 52-day wellness and self-development course, #Mission52 and I feel the need to speak about our belief-systems and the way we self-sabotage our dreams even before we begin to pursue them.
Maybe the big questions we should be asking ourselves are: “Do I at any point feel a sense of contentment from self-denial to things that would bring me [moral] happiness? Am I tired of feeling like everything I do turns bad?” You may be suffering from a self-defeating personality. And that’s the painful truth.
If you answered “yes” to any of the above questions, you probably experience a great deal of disappointment and mistreatment in your life. You may feel discouraged and suffer low self-esteem because nothing seems to turn out well for you.
I’ve been that person and I can tell you now, dear friend; you’re sabotaging yourself because you cannot fathom the overwhelming environment that comes with success in any sphere of your life – in your relationships, marriage, career, profession, etc.
Your relationships can be full of conflict and suffering, or so it may feel. At work, you may see coworkers get promoted while you wonder why you haven’t been offered a better position yet – I was once there. You have developed trust issues when it comes to love and resigned to the “fact” that it probably isn’t just for you – I’ve been there. You long to have more fun in your life, but something holds you back from getting out there and experiencing it, and you have a million excuses at your fingertips why you don’t deserve to have fun – kids, bills, debt, etc – I’ve been there.
When other people get to know you, they see you as someone who:
- Creates negative self-fulfilling prophecies – where you get to tell yourself “I told you so” when something goes wrong
- Sabotages herself
- Instigates others and feels hurt when they respond the same way
- Excessively sacrifices to the point of being a busybody, controlling, or passive-aggressive
- Sets the bar too low when it comes to personal goals
- Keeps bringing the “wrong” kind of people into her life
- Avoids positive energy
Why don’t you try these tips to help you make small changes that would steer you to start a journey towards a more fulfilling life right away, along with some tools that will help you stay on track in from this day forward?
How are your beliefs and experiences affecting your life?
Expectations and self-fulfilling prophecies
Self-fulfilling prophecies are based upon a false belief that later becomes true. An example of this self defeating habit happens frequently in relationships:
Sally secretly fears her husband Joe will cheat on her. She has no real reason to believe he will, because he’s attentive and affectionate. However, her doubts plague her and drive her to seek reassurance from Joe. “Do you love me?” she asks.
Even though he says, “Of course I do,” and continues to show her that he cares, she never quite believes him. Over time, he realizes that she will never be satisfied with his answer, and he grows impatient with her ongoing questioning. Before long, he starts communicating his impatience when she asks by rolling his eyes, sighing, or saying, “This again?”
Sally notices that he’s pulling away from her. Instead of acknowledging that her questions make him feel criticized unfairly, she’s certain that he’s hiding something. She asks more questions. “What do you mean you have to work an hour late tonight?” She may even call him to check up on him, a tactic he sees through. Their behaviors continue to escalate until Joe gets fed up. When he meets Jill, her confidence is attractive, and he thinks, “Well, Sally never believes me anyway, so I have nothing to lose if I have an affair.”
If you have a self defeating personality, you may frequently feel as if you “knew all along,” when in fact, you’ve actually engineered a trauma because you so deeply believed something that was originally false!
In order to stop self fulfilling prophecies from sabotaging your life, you must do three things:
- Recognize that you’re anticipating an outcome you don’t want.
- Discover whether you have proof that your expectation is valid.
- Release your expectations when you have no proof.
Self Sabotage and Rejecting Help:
Have you found yourself saying, “Well, hindsight is 20/20 vision” after experiencing setbacks they tried to warn you to avoid? Do you find that when others offer you help, it never works out?
Donny does. A year after getting laid off from his management job and finding it difficult to locate something similar, a friend who owned an automotive garage offered him a job. “Thanks, but I need to find a position in the same line of work,” he said, even though his wife was threatening divorce if he didn’t find something soon.
A few months later, when he was still unable to find a job and his wife had started packing her bags, he returned to his friend. “Hey, I’ll take that job after all. My wife’s decided to leave me if I don’t.” By that time, however, his friend had already filled the vacancy.
If you have a self-defeating personality, others may tell you that you don’t listen well or that you are your own worst enemy. Even if they say it in a joking manner, they’re communicating an important message to you about how you treat yourself and other people.
You may have trouble foreseeing the consequences of your choices because you don’t see the “big picture.” You become focused on those aspects that are important to you, but don’t give enough weight to other factors. In Donny’s case, he was too focused on maintaining his work skills for a certain type of job, and not giving enough consideration to his wife’s views or his friend’s sacrifice on his behalf. He felt disappointed and wronged, when it could have been avoided if he’d paid more attention to those “less important” things.
To overcome self sabotage, you’ll need to learn how to get out of your own way.
- Identify someone who uses good judgment and seek his or her opinion.
- Allow yourself to do exactly what they advise and see how it turns out, even if you don’t think it’s the best option.
Temper Your Temper
If you find yourself feeling defeated, depressed, or hurt because of the way others treat you or talk to you, ask yourself honestly whether you contributed to the event. While you’re never responsible for what another person says or does, if your own words and actions have been hurtful, insulting, or blame-shifting, then you may have been able to avoid unpleasantness by being more pleasant.
Sarcasm and “joking” that is aimed at another person’s weakness can produce similar responses.
You’ve heard the cliché “If you want a friend, be one.” This is especially true if you tend to have self defeating traits. In order to prevent others from mistreating you, you can start with these tips:
- Take a time out to calm down before speaking when you’re angry.
- Avoid sarcasm and jokes that have an element of truth about your friend or partner.
- Learn how to make and uphold your boundaries.
Giving Till it Hurts
When others just don’t appreciate the help you give them and the sacrifices you make on their behalf, consider how your efforts defeat yourself. You spend time, energy, and even money to help someone who doesn’t act like they want or appreciate it. The truth is, maybe they didn’t want you to step in.
People with self defeating personalities often don’t realize that others can perceive them to be pushy, controlling, or a nuisance. Their efforts are motivated by genuine kindness, yet they may not realize that the other person might want to fix their problems on their own.
If this describes you, your attempts to help others can leave you feeling overwhelmed and underappreciated. To break this pattern:
- Learn how to say no at times.
- Don’t offer help that isn’t requested.
- Set and uphold your boundaries.
Under-performing Your Abilities
Many people who are self defeaters set a low performance standard for themselves that can invade every area of their lives.
You may be setting the bar too low if you’re capable of doing something for others yet feel paralyzed when it comes to completing similar tasks for yourself. If people come to you for advice, yet you can’t seem to give good advice to yourself, you’ve had this experience. If you can mow your friend’s lawn while they’re on vacation yet can’t figure out how to operate your own mower, you may have a self defeating personality. If your intelligence level is high, yet people accuse you of having poor common sense, you might be experiencing another way that you defeat yourself. If you feel guilty or depressed when you do achieve something worthwhile, you’re punishing and sabotaging yourself instead of experiencing all your life has to offer.
To increase your self-esteem and feel more joy in your life, start with:
- Learning how to set higher, but attainable, goals.
- Take steps to achieve your goals.
- Celebrate your victories.
Defeating Yourself with Friendship
If you’re a self-defeater, you may feel bored or uninterested in people who treat you well, and excited by people who don’t really look out for your best interests.
A classic example of this is a woman who feels offended if a man pulls out her chair for her. Even though it doesn’t hurt her to accept his offer, she finds a reason to object to what is a genuinely thoughtful act on his part. Instead of attributing his behavior as kind, she interprets it to mean something different – that he thinks her incompetent.
This can be an extremely challenging habit to break. You may find that if you start to surround yourself with people who treat you well, you feel out of your element. Instead of an immediate, almost electric attraction to a new friend, you’re not sure how to behave or what to say.
To bring good people into your life who support you as you seek happiness, you need to first feel willing to accept some discomfort. You’ll also need to:
- Learn the difference between codependent relationships and healthy ones.
- Adjust your values and perceptions.
- Acknowledge that boredom as a sign of security and contentment.
- Examine whether excitement and passion are signals of instability.
How often do you avoid doing something that would bring you pleasure? Sure, you have reasons – but you know you’d have fun if only you’d let yourself engage.
Bring positive power and energy into your life to get rid of some of the “proof” that reinforces the kind of negative thinking that creeps into your decisions on a day-to-day basis.
- Say yes to opportunities that sound like they might be okay even if they’re not ideal.
- Use positive affirmations to remind yourself of the good in your life.
- Practice gratitude.
- Find ways to reward yourself for doing things right instead of beating yourself up over making a mistake.